{"id":4742,"date":"2026-01-26T05:08:54","date_gmt":"2026-01-26T13:08:54","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/www.littleraz.org\/?p=4742"},"modified":"2026-01-26T05:08:54","modified_gmt":"2026-01-26T13:08:54","slug":"mamas-birthday-spent-it-thinking-of-you","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.littleraz.org\/?p=4742","title":{"rendered":"Mama&#8217;s birthday &#8211; spent it thinking of you"},"content":{"rendered":"\n<p>A reflective day &#8211; whether or not you want it to be.<br \/>Here I am. 59. A strange number that feels too high, and doesn&#8217;t feel like it fits me, but I guess it doesn&#8217;t know what it feels like to be 59. So this is it.<br \/>At least it appears to be&#8230;. but I still have complete ownership over what I want it to develop to be&#8230; I want to heal our relationship more than anything else in the world.. I miss you all of the time &#8211; more than 50% of my life is wrapped up in incredible memories with you or of us. <br \/><br \/>I&#8217;m hoping you will still unblock me today. I hope with all I have that you will send me a loving text. I hope you will tell me what you need to so I can ensure you have it and we repair what has hurt us.<br \/><br \/>If not, today. then tomorrow. Hopefully soon after.  My heart is so very broken. Tell me what you need. <br \/><\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>A reflective day &#8211; whether or not you want it to be.Here I am. 59. A strange number that feels too high, and doesn&#8217;t feel like it fits me, but I guess it doesn&#8217;t know what it feels like to be 59. So this is it.At least it appears to be&#8230;. but I still have [&hellip;]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":2,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"closed","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":[],"categories":[1],"tags":[],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.littleraz.org\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/4742"}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.littleraz.org\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.littleraz.org\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.littleraz.org\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/2"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.littleraz.org\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=4742"}],"version-history":[{"count":2,"href":"https:\/\/www.littleraz.org\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/4742\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":4747,"href":"https:\/\/www.littleraz.org\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/4742\/revisions\/4747"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.littleraz.org\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=4742"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.littleraz.org\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=4742"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.littleraz.org\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=4742"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}